It's 8:30am on a Saturday morning. I usually sleep my mornings away on the weekend...catching up for what was lost all during the week. Today is different in every way. This morning as I awoke, the first thing I saw was a verse that was framed on the wall. It said, "For God has not give you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7 This verse was an immediate comfort to me, because today is different than any other Saturday. Today I leave the hustle and bustle of NYC and head upstate about an hour. I am not sure how long this will be for, but this I do know... "I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." Phil. 1:6 NLT
I will be taking an extended break from Facebook and just from any internet presence such as instagram and blogging. (Trust me, it's not going to be easy!!) But I am having to lay down all the distractions that may hinder me from getting the help that I need. I will be focusing on getting things in order in my own personal life and walk with Christ. I have no idea when I will be able to post any type of update...but I am taking very serious measures to face and heal what is broken in my life.
God is so amazing. He knew I would wake up this morning with a little bit of fear looming over me. He knew that the framed verse on the wall would be an immediate comfort to me in a moment of my distress. I have been comforted by Scripture this morning...reminded that worry doesn't accomplish anything. Worry doesn't add one single second to my life.
Luke 12:22-32
"Then, turning to his disciples, Jesus said, 'That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food to eat or enough clothes to wear. For life is more than food, and your body more than clothing. Look at the ravens. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for God feeds them. And you are far more valuable to him than any birds! Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? And if worry can’t accomplish a little thing like that, what’s the use of worrying over bigger things? Look at the lilies and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for flowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? And don’t be concerned about what to eat and what to drink. Don’t worry about such things. These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers all over the world, but your Father already knows your needs. Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need. So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom."
Those words from Jesus comfort me. They remind me of what a loving and powerful God I serve and know personally. Although the things of this world (circumstances, sadness, depression, hurts, disappointments, discouragements) will try to defeat us and knock us down for good, we have a Heavenly Father who loves us so much that He promises us LIFE.
Genesis 50:20 NLT says, "You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people." The enemy has loved nothing more than to distract me from my Divine calling and purpose in this life. Although there were a few times I thought he just might win...my GOD was much bigger.
Job 23:10 NLT says, "But he knows where I am going. And when he tests me, I will come out as pure as gold. For I have stayed on God's path; I have followed his ways and not turned aside.
I am facing a big day today...one that is filled with the unknown. I have moments of apprehension and moments of fear...and I am reminded of God's TRUTH that trumps any other voice out there trying to tell me differently. I am HIS. He gives me a spirit of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. So, I will take a giant leap of faith today toward healing and toward preparing myself and better equipping myself in order to help others in their desperate time of need. Please pray for me as I move toward this place of healing in my life. It won't be easy, but as a friend tells me often...anything worthwhile takes work and isn't easy.
Love you, friends
